Illegitimi Non Carborundum

i can only tell you what it feels like

and right now there’s steel knife in my wind pipe i cant breathe

But i still fight while i can fight

 and as long as the wrong feels right its like im in flight

high off of love, drunk from my hate

the more i love her the more i suffer

i suffocate

and right before im bout to drown

she resuscitates me

she fuckin’ hates me 

and i love it, wait

where you goin’

I’m leavin’ you

No you aint’

Come back

were runnin’ right back

here we go again

im superman with the wind in has bag

shes lois lane

and when its bad its awful 

i feel so ashamed

i snapped

who that dude

i dont even know his name

i layed hands on her

i never stoop so low again

i guess i just dont know my own strength

…

you ever love somebody so much 

you can barely breathe when your with em

you meet

and neither one of you even know what hit em

got that warm fuzzy feelin’

yeah them chills used to get em

now youre gettin fuckin sick of lookin at em

you swore youd never hit em 

never do nuttin ta hurt em

now youre in eachothers face spewin venom in your words

when you spit em

you push

pull eachothers hair, scratch, claw

bit em’

throw em’ down, pull eachothers hair

so lost in these moments when youre in em’

its the rage that took over

controls you both

So they say its best to go your separate ways

guess that they dont know ya

cause today

that was yesterday

yesterday is over

its a different day

sounds like broken records playin over

but you promised her

next time ill show restraint

you dont get another chance

life is no nintendo game

now you get to watch her leave out the window

guess thats why they call it window pane

…

Now i know we said things

did things

that we didnt mean

and we fall back into the same patterns 

same routines

but your tempers just as bad as mine is

youre the same as me

when it comes to love

youre just as blinded

baby please

comeback

it wasnt you

maybe it was me

maybe our realtionship isnt as crazy as it seems

maybe thats what happens when a tornado meets a volcano

all i know is i love you too much

to walk away now

where you goin’

puck up your bags off the sidewalk

dont you hear sincerity

in my voice

when i talk

told you this is my fault

look me in the eyeball

next time im pissed ill aim my fist

at the drywall

next time

there wont be no next time

i apologize even though i know its lies

im tired of the games

i just want her back

i know im a liar

if she ever tries to fuckin’ leave again

imma tie her to the bed and set this house on fire.

…

Drugs and alcohol??

love em….

go right ahead and do what makes you happy

doing prescrips and stuff is bad though… its just weird.. stick to the sticky green and legals and ur all good

Honestly,

I dont know where i want to be in 10 years. Right now I want to be living in a suburb in South California, close to LA. Hopefully making a lot of money :) traveling a lot, not working a lot.

aka everyones dream life…